Sunday, August 28, 2005
Not seeing you is so hard its killin me!
And it taunts me because when I close my eyes...
guess who I see?
I see you...and only you
I see your face.
I see you everywhere
all the time
and in any place.
I'm going crazy and its cause of you that I'm completely insane!
I love you more than life itself an my feelings for you is something I can't explain.
Loving you and gettin love back is betta than all the money and riches in the world...
I thank God ev'ry single day for choosing me to be your one and only ..
heavenlove forever
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
17:04
There are many things that I want to be
Let me tell you in case you don't see
Let it be me
Because I want to be...
The shoulder you cry on when nothing goes your way
The person who tells you...when no one else will say
The one to catch you when ever you may fall
If ever you need anything I'm at your beck and call
The first thought you have upon waking
As long as you can give I'll keep taking
I want to be your joy when you have pain
Your sunshine when you are soaked with rain
Your strength when you are weak
The one who loves to hear you speak
The reason for the smile upon your face
The one you run to when you have been disgraced
Let me be your reasoning when you are confused
Your comfort when you feel your being used
The one who holds you when you are afraid
The one who does the things you never said
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
17:01
Saturday, August 27, 2005
muz be wondering y i'm still awake at tis time??hmmm... i went drink after my work today... sitting alone at a cafe... seeing alot of couple walking pass....hugging each other...so lovely...i cried... for dunno wat reason... wondering if my love one is beside me then is so good...waHhHh..i miss u alot alot alot...but i dun even dare to msg u....i scare to quarrel with u.. i scare u say harsh words to me again...i reli feel so sorry abt wat happen today but wat else can i do to make u feel beta??i know i'm jus angry n say all those words tat i'm not supposed to say but i had said le...i cant take back my words too..if i know u'll become like tat then ytd i wont even say anything le...i wont even worry abt u wat time u wanna go hm le...reli ...i regret sending tat msg.... jus cos of tat msg make everything turns out to be like tis!!!!
KRIZ!!!!wat are u doing??are u mad???or insane???y making ur love one sad again!!wat else wat i do to make u feel beta??pls tell me...........................
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
05:45
been thinking alot alot alot... am i reli tat bad?? mayb i'm... i cant let u feel anything at all... r u asking me to let u go?? are you?? if yes, then i'll do it then... i wanted go find u ... but wat kind of reply is tat when i say wan go find u? i know i make u angry make u feel sad... but do i deserve tis kind of treatment from u?? YES!! i deserve it.. i know all along i'm jus holding u on... am i rite?? u msg me jus now say u HATE me?? wat can i reply?? wat else wat i say?? hating me make u feel beta ma?? if yes go ahead n hate me ba.. other than tat i reli dunno wat else i can do le.. i dun even dare to do anything now to u.. dun even dare to call u nor msg u at all...
is there still love btw us?? or we jus holding on to each other>??i know there wont be any ending but loving u is it wrong too??y my care n concern become e tot of controlling u...do i reli controll u so so much?? do i reli like tat JASON??to the extend of tat possive??AM I??by giving u all e stuff tat u like is not to make u feel guilty or pity me!!i jus wanna give u e things tat u like it onli...cos u're my love one... i know u will be happy but u dun seem it... u seem to pity me being with me pei me...is it like tat??
u say i'm being possive all along... u say i dun even care abt ur feelings n hurt u..i onli know how to make u sad n spoil ur day.. but when i know watever things tat i do for u n other ppl get e credits, then how i feel?? i didnt say anything too cos i know we had no chioce.. i never blame u or wat...cos i know we got to be like tis..
after all, i know is my fault for saying all e harsh things to u.. i make u sad i spoil ur day i ADMIT.. but will u give me any chance to save it?? u give me a death sentence le... u think i like to compare so much?? u think i feel good too??let me tell u.. NO,i'm not!!!!!cos jus one point he win me all e way le , HE'S A GUY AND I'M NOT!!!! wat else wat i compare then?? no matter how i compare i still cant change the fact tat i'm a gal lor!!!!
loving me make u so miserable make u feel so not worth it then choose ur own way to go ba...jus tell me n i wont disturb u anymore...if tis is wat u wan...............................................................................
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
05:26
Monday, August 22, 2005
i'm here again...heez... muz be too free le.. keep coming blogging my blog... i wont let it rot anymore ya... oPps....
im SICK!!!having flute n sore thorat le... so cold sia... dun feel like working lor but no chioce ar... i cant take MC anymore le... had been slacking alot alot le... so no chioce ya.... anyone wan to take care of me?? haha... :)
THE MAID is out... but y am i so bz tat i dun even haf yime to go watch it?? or no one is free to pei me go watch?? hmm.... my bro say is nice worz... so muz go watch ya... heezz.... tis few days i'll find one day to go or i'll jus go watch it myself ba... oPps...
i forgot to mention abt e PURPLE ROSE tat i buy for her!!! is last week i think?? i surprise her with tat purple rose tat she like ya... cos cant find lor.... tat is natural purple rose not dye de.. i find tat for very long time le... finally let me find it ya... heez... some more e rose is very beautiful...oPpS... I reli like it alot too.. hope u like it too... As wat e florist shop say it it represent "FOREVER LOVE" ....i hope it happens too... but i know it'll never...
thank god for giving me so much things tat i wanna do i had done...i wont blame for any unfairness anymore le ya...
i pack my room ytd... i throw alot alot of stuff ya... cos i decided to paint my room soon ba... i du n wan my room to be so kiddy anymore le... so alot of stuff i jus throw away le... e past will be the pass ya... so i threw everything away i dun think i need it ya...i wan to make my room look like a room now... heez... wanted to paint my room lime green, guess it will be nice ba... waiting to see my new room.. haha...
whenever listening to the tone tat i listen now i always feel so depress.... oh my god... i shall stop listening to it ba... heez.. i tot u'll come take ur hp today n can come find me cos i'm reli sick... u say he'll come fetch u hm... so i dun think u'll come find me take ur hp too le.. i'm so excited to take e hp for u but y u dun seem u like e hp ... like u dun seem to bother...okie ba... i shall not say anything too lor... tat's y i jus reply u so simple...
take good care my baby.... i dunno if ur prsentation is gd or bad cos i'm too sick to ask u anything le ba... but i hope u'll had a good prsentation today... i had hope in u de... miz u lots.. love u...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
16:43
Saturday, August 20, 2005
hmmmm.... dunno y suddenly feel so depress again... y nowdays i keep having mood swing... dun dare to turn to anyone too.... jus wanna face myself rite now alone... am i thinking too much le ma?? i dunno too... can i walk out of my sadness now.... i hate tis feelings... y muz i haf it?? haiz... i'm reli reli speechless rite now le... my tears flow down when i saw my meomeries now...
i'm happy being with u cos i cherish every min... every sec... every single day being with u... but knowing e true seem so terrible... each day pass, i feel tat loving u seem so happy but wat if e day tat i had to leave u?? then wat muz i do??
wat i can do now is to cherish e times being with u... give u wat u wan wat u like.. jus wanna see u happy... alots of things being hide is good ba... i shall not wan to know e truth anymore...knowing e thruth is hurtful... i think is no longer impt ya... wat's most impt now we're happy...
i leave u with my heart
i know i'm no longer impt in ur heart
i know i had no courage to say goodbye
to leave u sliently when u found ur happness
is it all fated tat we cant be together
when i put in my heart n soul
to get back lonelyness n being alone
i know u wont tell me e truth is for my own good
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
15:48
again my break time i was here to blog again.... alot alot of things happen tis few weeks ya...
no time to come update!! heez... celebrate ling birthday ytd... even though very less ppl but we did enjoy ya... but seem to lack of something ya...dunnno y... haha....we went black ya, oh my god so little ppl were there.... but so far so gd ba... as long as ling enjoy herself ya...
ling... grown up le worz... hope everything will be fine n sucessfully....i'm trying very hard to entertain u le ar...haf u as my mei is my honour....heez.... thanks for everything kk....no matter wat, we muz always stay in contact kk... mizZzz u lots....
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
15:37
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
had not been updating my blog again le ar....so sorry... had a happy week tis few days... i'm okie le.... even i dunno wat i'm doing now is rite or wrong... but as long i know i'm happy can le.... i can torealate everything now ba....some times i may be jealous or angry but is jua a while ba....i wont give up my fav things anymore cos of other ppl le... i like wat i like not cos of other ppl have it then i give up!! i wont do all tis childish things anymore le... i feel like i'm growing up alot le... am i?? haha...i hope so...
all my frends...thanks for accompany me for e past fews week when i reli down.....dun worry abt me anymore cos i'm fine le.... dun need to pei me suffer le kk....sorry.... :)
i know u're happy with everything now ba... i know wat we're doing ya... true love still exsist... heavenlove stays in our heart sliently... i'll choose to love u sliently... i wont show how gd am i or how sad or how happy am i now le.... holding u together with me till e end of time always is my wish... but now i'll put it in my dream le... i reli hope to see u do great with everything...
be4 i go, i reli wan to spent happily with u... tat's all... i love you :)
lastly, i long time never go my bike lesson le worz...shall go update le ya..haha..:p
gtg le.....stop my blog now...go sleep n continue my dream of u...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
23:42
Friday, August 05, 2005
wat a tiring day!!i jus finish manjong session with jayius,daniel n his father tis morning n went to work straight ya...hahah...so dame tiring but jus cant to slp....nvm la, not e first time le....tis few weeks almost everyday like tat sia...dunno y suddenly crazy of playing manjong....haha...
bro...so sorry ar...cos pei me play manjong then had a small quarrel with my xiao mei ar...heez...sorry la mei...dun angry with him kk....is not his fault is my fault ya.....
anyway,thanks for being there ya.....
went to work today, tot it will be dame bz like hell in e end ended up we cant sell in e morning cos of e stupid sales!!!then onli started selling at ard one plus lor...dame it!!i'm so tired le still make me do nothing in e morning...keep falling asleeep while working sia...haha...oPpS...:)
got to go back to work le...sianz...going back to earn more money!!!heez..byez
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:13
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