Monday, October 31, 2005
long time no blog again sia... haha... eh... can anyone tell me wat to do??im finding answer everywher... but i still cant find my answer... actually going out today to play manjong de... but last min cancel le.... so no one to went out with so i went out alone... i long time never go ice skate le... so going ice skating later alone ... to cool myself down?? hmm... i think so ba... no one knows how i feel or rather bother abt it... the gal tat i love dun love me anymore... but the gal tat i dun love ... she love me.... sigh... i reli dunno wat to do le... can anyone find me another her for me?? i dunno how long i can take it tis time le... she feel more n more for him... but me.... all my effort had gone into the sea le... i reli dunno wat else i can do le... i know wat's she thinking all along... she always hope tat beside her de is not me but him... but im always beside him... is it like tat she feel bored of me le ma?? i dunno... anyway, the world is not gone yet... i'll stay strong ya... no matter wat happens... pls let me know... cos i jus wan u to be happy... lastly im going to cool down n relax myself today le... no one will be disturing me ya.... haha...
baby... enjoy urself today ba... i know u miz him lots... i wont call or msg to disturb u ya... :)
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
16:31
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
ytd went out with daniel... cos is his birthday worz.. even very little ppl went celebrate foe him but at least got me... charmaine... zijian ...william.. we went to boat quake ther to have our dinner... is a high class restraunt lor... and all of us wear till so lok ko.... tat's why when we reach ther we'll so paiseh... cos zijian was wearing shorts... baby was wearing 3/4 shorts... oPpS... we laugh until dunno wat sia... the food ther was dame not suit us lor.. so werid de.. and so ex lor... onli the starters is nice.. kaoz.. i think the bill cost 100++++ lor.. hmmm... after tat we head to ms lor... play blowing... play pools... then went hm le... later going to meet all my buddies again le ya!! haha... play manjong... cook for them to eat... waiting for baby to come back hm ya... hmmmm.... sure go le... update some other time ba...
lastly, i fail my rtt.... sadded!! :(
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:35
Friday, October 21, 2005
love is jus hurtful.... couples always had quarrrels... had the happiness together.... the unforgettable meomeries tat had spent together...
but for me now.. i jus wanna be alone ba.. even no one shower me wif love... wif care... wif concern... wif hugs...i reli dun wanna step into any r/s anymore le... one is enough le... i know is kind of stupid for me to do tat... but other than tat i reli dunno wat i should do le... im jus following wat my hearts say... i had been be4 alot of r/s.. but tis time i think it wont be cure so easily ba... how long i'll take to stand up? i dunno too.. no one believes me.. no one trust me tat i wont be alone for long... let's see ba... after my love one reli being wif her long wanted prince of cos not me... then i think is time for me to change all my life style le ba... i wan earn lots lots of money.. i wan to buy my fav. bike... my sports car.. my own home[cond.]... my own shop... lastly, my operation...i hope im not late yet to start at my age... be4 i turn into 35 i wan get all my things... by tat time i jus wan to be a freedom person le... so i can do anything tat i wan.. get wat i wan too.. then tat time i beg alot of gals will come find me le ba... hahahahahaha.. :)
i know is a bit the weird... i know is abit the immpossible..but like i always say : "believe in urself... miracle will happens to you... " i like tis words.. ppl tat close to me will know i always like to say tat... even no miracle tat i expect had happen yet... but mayb one day it will....
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
12:09
i fail my FTT ya... but is okie.. i'll retake it but very long worz... dec then got slot for it... sob sob... hmmm... the test is easy but tricky... mayb i make alot of careless mistakes ba.. :P i'll be careful next time de... heez..
hmmm... sometimes i was thinking... if am i reli the one u need?? am i the one u wan me to be wif u?? to pei u?? im feeling jealous ... very jealous... jealous of why u're not telling me the truth... why wanna hide everything behind me?? is it good for me?? i can feel the happiness tat u had now... im hapi to see u smile... but not moodless... i had try all my ways to make u hapi le... but in the end always ended up quarrel??bored?? haha... i dunno why too...
hapi for not hearing tat u complain going out with him is bored le... mayb u had already fall in le... even is bored but wif him u feel hapi... i know wat's u're thinking... u hope he can pei u more often... n not once in a week?? is time for me to go work too le ba... then like tat u can haf more time for him le ba... he's ur love one... im not going to be selfish... nor wei da?? jus wanna see u hapi... being with him u'll feel more comfortable ba.. :)
hmmm... if im leaving ... anyone will be sad ma?? haha... anyway is childish la.. i got alot of things wanna do le... if i reli gone disappear.. pls dun come find me.. once i settle down... i'll find u... anyway my blog's song is nice rite?? haha... i like it alot... is a sad song... but is nice... heez..
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
11:47
Thursday, October 20, 2005
hmmm.. tml having final theory test for car le worz.. but i dun understand it at all... dunno wat all abt.. and i dunno who to ask... sob sob... :( i think tml go sure fail de ba... jus go for the sake of going... no mood to take too...
mood swing fast.. suddenly sad.. suddenly happy.. suddenly down... all kinds of feelings come ard me nowadays... today my hp was off the whole day till i reach hm... but surprising no one find me at all... so quiet... frend use to call me but no more.. mummy use to call me too but i make her angry?? and... someone tat i miss didnt call me too or msg me.. im not being alone but why still im feel so bored!!!
for test everything goes very smoothly for me at the moment... but not abt my love life ba... i dare not to try anything le ba... or i still thinking of having her?? or is it not the time yet to start a new r/s... i think so ba... i dun wanna mind so much le...
WO ZHEN DE ZHEN DE REN MING LE... i got to accpet it.. im not the one tat come into ur mind already... i think i had play enough le... i feel tat staying here wif u.. i make u even more sad... even more ma fan.... even more stress.. nothing is good... cos i know im still a kid.. im never grown up.. im childish.. tat me!! sorry
*im sorry for being not truthful to u.. sorry for not telling u everything.. all is just a lie... other than sorry i dunno wat else i can say le... but all i know is i dun wish to hurt u but indeed i did.. so sorrry... hope u can find someone beta than me... *
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
20:12
Monday, October 17, 2005
long long time never come post le sia...hmm.. very moodless to blog nowdays ya... the past few days alot of things happen ba.. i onli remember i had a world war again... dunno is it being with her onli got quarrel is it?? sometimes i reli sick of quarreling le... but i jus cant control my temper... sigh.. i cant see a min we wont quarrel de.. wat's happening sia... i dunno too.. mayb everything is changing.. even ourself...
tis month going to end le ya.. tat means im going to start work?? haha.. mayb i'll go to work cos of some reason tat hush me to go work... but i dunno yet... dunno wat to tell my uncle tat i dun wanna start my job so early cos i haven get my bike lesson.. and oso... i dun wan to leave my baby alone ba... i dunno if she need me cos of rely on me or wat... but i did promise her i'll be ther for her de.. heez..
wat's happening now, i know... wat're thinking i dun wish to know anymore... since im not the one tat u can talk to anymore... then keep to ur own heart ba.. i wont ask u anything anymore le.. i'll try to make u happy cos i onli want to see u smile... i dun wanna see u cry le... sorry... i know i make u crazy at times... but i dun mean it worz.. so sorry.. beside u, i had no one else le... cos everyone seem to be changing... i'm so worry... worry tat im being left alone at a corner one day... i dun like being alone.. u understand?? anyone knew it?? nvm... i dunno wat im doing now... i sure stop here ba..
preparing to go movie later with baby.. the skeleton key.. nice nice.. scary scary... heez...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
13:41
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
wat should i do? wat should i do? haiz.. y always quarrel? when all tis will stop....!!!! wat i do seem to be wrong!! i try all my ways to make her happy.. but in the end i still fail!! y am i so useless then?? i try very hard not to get jealous or angry or sad in front of u le... and even u go meet him i jus say ok... wat's tis?? wanted to bring u go eat fish n co today n go watch movie if the new show is out... but then... i reli speechless.. wat's wrong being a good person?? muz i be nasty then ppl will like me izzit?? gone... totally lost... and i dun even know wat to say anymore!!
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
11:26
Monday, October 10, 2005
hmmm... had a glad time after baby's birthday... sorry tat i'm drunk on ur birthday itself... cant control.. n long time never drink le ba... heez... anyway hope ur dream come true ya... stay cute & lovly always... :)
hmmm... after so many things tat i had did for u... dun know if u're happy over it.. but wat i can do for u i had did le.. u happy or not i reli dunno... cos i feel tat u dun seem to be happy over wat i had done for u ba... anyway, nvm ba.. finally ur birthday is over le.. i can settle down too le ba.. mayb all along wat i had did still cant help anything btw us... he still the one in ur mind... the one u wanted to be wif till the end.. [wo ka si xin le ma??] i sure not think so much then... left less than a month onli.... i goanna start work le... i'll not disturb u always le n busy with my work ba... i dun wanna think so much too le... tired!!
sometimes i'm thinking why muz i do so much when i know ther's no more chance?? why cant i jus accept the fact?? when will i grown up?? i dunno too.. sure leave all tis to fate ba.. let fate decide for us kk... i'm happy when u're ther le.. even ur mind thinking is not me.. is ok... as long as i can be wif my love one... is enough le... i wont ask for more too le... cos my heart for u is numb le..
heavenlove is death n rest in peace in my heart... whenever u need me i'll be ther too...if u need someone to lead on.. i'll lent u my shoulder too...nothing can change my love for you...i wont escape from u too..i'll carry on with my life and accept other's love for me... i'll not bother abt it anymore.. whenever i think of u, i'll jus smile to feel the happiness ard me...
pray hard for me everything will goes smoothly... nothing goes wrong.. :)
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:12
Friday, October 07, 2005
hmmm... come here for a fast update ya.... i'm at daniel hse ya... hmmm waiting for him to bath to get prepared to go out with us.... heez..
hmm.. think baby now is having her long waiting outing now... wondering wat's she doing now... i bet she's too happy or bz jus to call me le ba... haiz... happy for her but my is heart seem so werid?? trying very hard not to think so much.. cos i had my beloved frends around me!! hmm... i sure enjoy myself today n get drunk!! haha... oPPs...
bro bro... the bet is still going on ar.... see who's the one going to drink up one big cup later.... heez.. :)
im missing u alot... hope everything will be fine today... gonna be a unforgetable
nite today for me ba...or is the last nite?? haha...
gtg le ba... sure update again when i'm free...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
18:46
Thursday, October 06, 2005
hmmmm.... had been posting my own feelings .. but not wat's happening btw me ar.... heez.. hmmm... i pass my ttt le!!! so happy.. finally sia.. n now waiting for my rtt ya... tyd is weijie bday ya.. went eat with them n baby at saka... he reli can eat sia... small size but eat alot alot... heez..
after tat went back to baby hse to watch tv n slack ya... so tired!! dunno y.. mayb cos not sleeping enough ba... heez.. and now i wake up in the early morning to go back hm ya... her daddy send me hm first then send her to school... yawn.. reach hm le but cant sleep... sob sob... missing her expression when sleeping... haha.. oPps.. lastly, cos i cant get to sleep so i come online n going off to meet zj for lunch le... after all going to fetch my beloved baby... mayb go catch a movie before going to meet her jie ba... hmm.. life seem so bz ar... but bores ya... dunno wat to do oso... sianz,.. but later can see my baby le.. i wont feel bored le.. hope she wont feel bored too... me going to tease her later le.. to cheer her up!! yeahz!!
baby: working is nothing to me at the moment... jus one word from you... i'll do wat u wan me to do... jus for you.. remember wat i say?? [no matter you're sad or happy... i wanna be by ur side]
this is my promise... heez.. :) becos i love u so i do it for you....
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:25
i regret for not telling u the truth...
i dun wanna miss the chance of being with you...
pls tell me the truth whenever u're down...
complain to me if u're not happy...
i feel happiness if i can share ur sorrows n pain...
i asked u why is ther a ending for us...
but i knew tat can be with u every moment, i'm happy le...
being together almost coming 3 years le...
wat'll be the outcome like??
i dunno too, i dun wish to think...
all i know is, can be with u i'm glad le...
i know i'm impt to u...
u're oso impt to me too in my heart...always!!
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:09
if ther's day, is my last time to see the blue sky...
i'll put my words deeply in my heart...
waiting for the rain...
i hope anytime i can be ur shadow for u to lead on...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
13:55
+ all this precious moments
++ with you by my side
+ + must be a gift from heaven
+ + thats holding me all night
+ + i dont know how i found you
++ im thankful that i have
+ + now that i have a love so true
++ to hold to keep to share
++ in my heart i can no longer hold inside
+ + all of the love i used to hide
++ i'll always be with you until the very end
+ + in this world there is no place i'd rather be
+ + you are my life my soul my ger
++ and through it all
++ i know that u've come to see that
++ you're the one till the end
+ + all my friend around me
+ + say you'd be gone too soon
+ + baby im gonna make them see
++ we've found our way back home
+ + in my heart i can no longer hold inside
+ + all of the love i used to hide
++ i'll always be with u until the veri end
+ + in tis world there is no place i'd rather be
+ + you are my life my soul my girl
++ and through it all
+ + i noe tat you've come to see that
+ + you're the one till the end
++ we'll always be till the end +
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
13:42
this is cute.... heez... i'll always put tis meomeries in my heart... in my dream.. u'll always appear..
i hope tis can last so long so long and never end... but i knew it'll never happen... some things will never go our own way... i had been missing u even though we meeting everyday... dunno why too.. after so much things had happen... i realise alot of things tat i dun wish to know too... alot of things i dun wish to know i had knew... i still miss u as much.. i still love u as much... y am i not hating u?? i jus cant bring myself for doing tat... cos u jus mean so much to me ba... no matter wat u do... i jus accept it... is this called love?? i'm wondering....
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
11:31
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
i jus wan to let u know... without u my love for u still will be the same as now... without u nothing for me is changing.. i decide wat to do le ya... i wont be miserable anymore after tis week le ba... i wan to be the old me... the strong kriz... yup... i mayb down nowadays... but i'll recover after a few days... sorry tat i make u miserable make u cry... i'm so sorry... i love you
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
12:09
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
There's a place for us my Angel,with our Lord up above,
A place where tears can never fall and hearts are filled with love.
The sun does shine the moon's aglow, the darkness fades away,
There is a lovely nursery where you can play each day.
The Angels sing you lullabies as you drift off to sleep,
They chase the nightmares far away so you need never weep.
The fluffy clouds are pillows, to lay your weary head,
You're all wrapped up in Angel's wings asleep in Heaven's bed.
How could I wish you back down here with all the strife and pain?
I know that you are happy there and I'll see you again.
So play on precious Angel, I know you've many friends,
But please just know I love you so and will 'til my life ends.
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:48
Although you are with someone else,
I want to have my say
Without invading your domain
Or scaring you away.
I respect the choice you made
And all that you decide,
But I would just like you to knowI want you by my side.
As a lake deep in a wood
Awaits a cool, fresh breeze,I will wait, a patient eye,
While you do as you please.
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:45
After you leave, I will become a tree
Alone on a hillside, loving wind and sun,
Waiting for you to return home to me
Though centuries of lonely stars may run.
I'll grow tall and give lots of shade,
Sheltering birds and other bright-eyed things.
Pleased with all the progress that I've made,
I'll spread my leafy branches out like wings.
But oh! Every moment of every dayI'll miss you with the passion of the wind,
Gazing endlessly upon the wayThat without you must empty, empty wind.
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:37
除了想你,除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记,整理心情 (打开心情)
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过,
你在敷衍我 一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心,
无力继续 这感情
不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆 不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情 早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你 不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你 不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
14:09
the answer u give me is so direct ... the things tat u say & u do i feel so jealous ... i wanna hide myself... i wanna hold on to my tears ... i wanna stay strong... but why i'm getting so affected by it so so much?? how long can i stand??
i seem no longer in ur heart anymore... no longer the one u used to love anymore... is it truth?? i dun wish to think... i dun wanna think... but it seems so unfair.... why ended up become like tis?? am i not good enough?? am i not ur perfect one anymore?? all the things tat i did seem to be thrown into deep sea and never be found anymore.... i dun wanna hide my feelings anymore... i got feelings too... i'm a human too... watever things tat u do... i feel it too... ....
can u tell me wat to do instead?? 要我离开吗?? u dun need me to lent my shoulder to u anymore... u dun need me to share ur happiness too... cos u had found him le...
seriously, i dunno wat to say... muz i do the things tat wat i dun wish to do again?? is so hurtful... 是时候我放手了吧... i dun wish to see u sad anymore... since u had found ur happiness ... found ur mr. right... i wish u all the best... dun blame me for wat i had did... i jus wan to see u happy...
我会学着放弃你,因为我爱你...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
13:34
Monday, October 03, 2005
is hard to accept the fact... i say i'll stay strong... but not now... cos i reli need to cry out loud one day when i'm alone.... cos it keep bothering me in my heart... i had to let it out... i cant cry now cos i dun wan to let her see me cry... heez... cos i wan to be guai... n be the cute strong baby in front of her for the last....
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
01:35
hmmm.... tis few days.... had been thinking alot ba... things tat i never done... i try to do it for her... i promise myself not to cry anymore... not for love again... my tears is dried up le ba... or i reli dun wish to see myself cry anymore...
i'm tired.... tired of entering a new r/s... mayb i'm scare?? haha... no one knows... finally, i realise alot of things... some things can jus be so chang ku.... it comes and go... i'll take it easy... i wont hold on to it anymore longer..not i had stop loving you... but for ur happiness, i'll let u go... guess wat i'm doing now??i'm blogging and i keep smiling... am i crazy?? heez... :)
i decide to write a story of us for tis few years... the happy times... the sad times... even is not very long... 2 years going to 6months?? i think so ba... i know my forever is no longer happen anymore but it'll happen in my heart de... i wan to write out abt us into a book... name title: 'heavenlove' ... for my beloved gal tat i had in my life... cos i wan her to take a look at the book n smile... cos it's so xin fu... :)
i know i cant be the one to take good care of u le... cant be the one to lent u my shoulder anymore... or i'm not the one u need anymore... i dunno wat answer u give him... but i hope wat decision u made i jus wan to see u happy... i know tat u know wat u're doing... so i didnt wanna ask u more abt wat had happen... i choose to keep quiet... and spent the day happily with u now... no matter wat happens, u still my baby... forever.... onli one to stand a place in my heart...
`heavenlove always stay in our hearts'
01:19
Past --]]
July 2004
October 2004
November 2004
January 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
February 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
January 2007
February 2007
April 2008
May 2008
Creditx --]]
designer;
photobucket;
blogger;